Friends, I’m going through some of this now but am not desperate as this prayer indicates. However, I know the Holy Spirit gave this writing to me to help someone who is struggling right now. As I wrote it, I felt that struggle and understood how much misery that person feels. I pray whomever you are that you find this blog and it helps you trust God with all the challenges you face. . . . . .

Lord, I’m not ready for this. So many changes, so much wonder about how it will all work out, if it will all work out in any way that I can be happy with. It seems that the older I get, the more temporary everything becomes. Will it always be that way? Why does change have to occur so often and so interrupting of my life? What comes next?

Can I really depend on you to work out all the changes so I’m at least satisfied with them, if not happy with them? I know your Word says I can depend on you in all circumstances, but sometimes it’s hard when I don’t know how things will end. Give me more faith to believe that you’ll work this all out. So many things have to change, and I have so much to manage right now, most of which is out of my control.

Forgive my questioning, Lord. I know that you’ll take care of me, whatever happens, and that I can trust you to be with me, even when I don’t like my circumstances. I remember how much I felt your presence with me, even when I was having so much trouble and trying to run away from you. You wouldn’t let me go but kept on letting me feel your presence with me, even when I couldn’t do much for myself, when I needed so much help and was in so much pain that I didn’t want to do anything.

I know that as you were with me then, so you’ll be even more with me now when I’m seeking your answers. I love you, Lord, and all I can do is to leave everyone of these complicated circumstances in your hand, and trust you to work out the whole thing.

“For I know the plans I have for you” — this is the Lord’s declaration — “plans for your well-being, not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope” (Jeremiah 29:11 Christian Standard Bible)